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Self-harm, though an issue increasingly recognized
and addressed in teenagers, is not a new phenomenon. Many of the
mysteries surrounding adolescents who practice self-harm, also known
as self-injury (SI), self-mutilation, or “cutting”, have been
dispelled with recent improvements in child psychology, but many
still remain. Support groups for cutters have sprung up, such as
http://www.selfharm.net/self.html, however, often even websites such
as these neglect to address how self-harm affects those associated
with the person practicing the self-harm, from close family to
casual friends.
My personal experience with a family member who practiced self-harm
was difficult for both of us, as I could not (and still do not)
fully understand what drove her to such an extreme. Depression and
an inability to express her emotions played a large part in making
the situation worse, and that I could relate to; being a teenager is
not something to take on alone. But I didn’t understand why she
continued to cut, even after the issue was addressed and dealt with,
so I thought, through therapy. Though I tried to do everything I
thought possible to help her – trying to discuss it, trying to help
the scars heal, trying to relate to her anxieties – it was her issue
to work through, and I felt helpless because there was nothing I
could really do but be there for her. The cycle of worry, anger and
guilt continued every time she cut, which perpetuated her own cycle
of depression and guilt. In retrospect, I’m not sure what, if
anything, I could have done differently to help her. In the end, it
took her willpower to change the situation.
Self-injury can also physically affect those around you, as I have
also personally experienced. At a period in my life when I was going
through a great deal of stress, I began to relieve some of that
tension by using safety pins to prick and scratch long cuts on my
wrists and arms – not mortal injuries by any means, but enough to
draw blood and experience the relieving rush of sensation that I
felt I needed. When my best friend found out about this, she began
to do similar things, only taking them a step further. By the end of
that year, I was still using safety pins, but she had carved and
burned someone’s name into her leg – and the trend was spreading. In
my class, it became something of a status symbol to self-inflict,
whether by bruises or cutting the name of your crush on your arm
instead of a tree. Whether those cases were children seeking
attention or real cases of self-harm precipitated by depression
isn’t important, but the seriousness of the situation never left me.
I had recently gotten myself out of that habit, via numerous
distractions, when I encountered the family member who also
practiced self-harm, and perhaps it was remembering my friends and
classmates that made dealing with her issues separate from my own so
difficult. It has taken a lot of self-control, communication and
understanding on everyone's part to make life run more smoothly, but
it's entirely possible. "Self-harm", I've learned, is a bit of a
misnomer; People who practice it can harm others around them as
well, but that shouldn't be a guilt trip or a trigger. It should be
the beginning of more open discussion and a point of consideration
between those who self-harm and those who love them.
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